Thursday, March 5, 2009

Grandpa's Big Fishing Trip

As many of you know by now, my sweet, 94-year-old Grandpa went to Heaven on the 10th of February. I know now that God called me to his bedside that morning away from my usual afternoon visit routine so that I could be there with him. When I saw him, I knew he was going and I went into overdrive trying to make everything just perfect for him. Finally, I sat down on his bed and embraced him. I sang several hymns to him as the Chaplain entered to pray...and it was with the final phrase of " It Is Well With My Soul" that Grandpa took his final breath. The most painful minutes of my life became the sweetest as I realized he was already in Heaven...standing on the big dock outside the big white house and waiting to go inside and see all of those who have already gone before. I miss him terribly as I recall especially the last 5 years of my life in which Grandpa was my world. I find myself not knowing what to do with my day or weekend now that he is not here to visit. I find myself wondering if I did everything right and if he was ok...if he was truly as peaceful as he looked. I never remember verses, but that morning I remembered a verse that brought me great peace...and I will never forget it. "For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows." 2 Cor. 1:5 What joy fills my heart to know Grandpa is out of pain and finally home with the Lord. Yes, I miss him..Yes, I think of him all the time. YES...I KNOW I will embrace him again someday only to recite those sweet words...It IS well with my soul!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

How Blessed We Are

I've heard so many people say that this time of year, when it gets dark early - cold and the worst time of the year! I beg to differ! I love this time of year when it's too dark outside to be anywhere but home with the people you love. We all get moving so fast, doing this and that, and putting so much emphasis on buying presents, finding the perfect party gown or suit to wear to the perfect party, closing the last deals of the year at work, and setting goals for 2009 that we don't often just sit and BE...sit and think...relax...and most importantly...put the focus BACK on what really counts right now...NOW. If you spend so much time planning tomorrow, you entirely miss today. If we do this all month long, we'll miss the REAL reason for the season...the biggest birthday in history! We all, hopefully, have roofs over our heads, food to eat, clothing to keep us warm and a support system of family and friends to count on...How blessed we are. We all have the ability to know Jesus Christ, to walk with him, to talk to live by Him...How blessed we are. We all have the opportunity to share the good news and to brighten someone's life with that news...HOW BLESSED WE ARE!!! What will you do before the end of this year to make a change?

Monday, November 24, 2008

Up to the Mountain

I went up to the mountain because He told me to. I'm now waiting for what he wants me to do next. After an amazing Night of Praise, I'm most thankful for one thing...that God was CENTER STAGE!!!
Since that evening I have been consumed with an ailing 94-year-old grandpa whom I love very much, and with what my next steps will be to go in the direction God is pointing me.
This blog is short and sweet as what would mean the most to me is to know you are all praying...not just for me and my family...but for everyone out there who is at a crossroads whether it is the slow passing of a loved one, a job change, a financial crisis or some major life-altering decision ahead. We all need prayer...don't you?
I, for one, am so glad God can hear us all at the same time! He loves us so!

Friday, October 24, 2008

I Will Not Be Moved

With a little over one week to go before the concert, I am amazed at how so many things can come into place so fast! I told the backup singers and the band that as long as we stay focused on the fact that this night is for God...He'll see us through....and HE IS!

I Corinthians 15:58 reads,
"Stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain."
It's taken me a long time to realize what Standing Firm really means, and now that I know I have a great responsibility on my shoulders it means even more to me.

What does it mean to you? Does it mean that we give in to what others are doing around us because we don't want to stand out in a crowd? Does it mean we follow someone else's lead before we really know where they are leading us? Does it mean we live for Sunday, but do as little as necessary Monday through Saturday?

I think I have one answer...We live by FAITH, and FAITH ALONE! We stand firm in His presence even when it might be uncomfortable to us. I challenge each of you to do something for the Lord this week that makes you uncomfortable...God never said it would be easy, and if you are uncomfortable you might actually be in a place for Him to use you in a whole new way!

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Be Afraid, Be VERY Afraid Satan!

This week has been a struggle to get well. Jeremy and I both got our flu shots first thing Monday morning, and by Tuesday afternoon I was down for the count! Add to that a change in temperature outside and here comes the sinus infection. The doc said there was an all-out war going on in my body! Normally, this wouldn't phase me, but the fact that we are two weeks away from the concert had me worried! One thing after another seemed to happen...everything from my hair dryer blowing up in my hand to an all out mutiny at the name it, it's happened this week. Then suddenly, a lightbulb went on in my head....this is Satan's attack. You see, anytime we are doing something or working toward something in the name of the gets very angry. He'll do anything to side track us, or just plain make life difficult. His ultimate goal is to get us to hang it up, call it off or just quit! Well, guess what...I've adopted a new motto...
Live your life in such a way that when your feet hit the ground in the morning, Satan shudders and says, "Oh Crud! She's awake!"
So TAKE THAT Satan! You better put your big boy britches on and GET OVER IT because come November're not going to know what hit you! TO GOD BE THE GLORY - AND THE VICTORY!

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus

As many of my friends and family know, Jeremy and I are in the process of adopting a baby. The road to this decision was not pain-free or easy, but it was evident that God had a plan, and we were to follow His map. This weekend, we met for the first time with the adoption agency we've chosen to work with, and discussed our desire to be open to God's will for our family.
There was a young couple there to pick up their new daughter that was born last Wednesday. They too have struggled with this decision and God's obvious intentions as, like us, they never expected to be where they are doing what they are doing.
The new father said something very poignant though. He said, "This entire journey is just further proof that Romans 8:28 is real and true!"
Romans 8:28 - And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,[j] who[k] have been called according to his purpose.
Adoption is a calling. Jeremy and I have felt this call. We have been at the pit of dispair only to discover an immense joy in letting go and letting God!
Possibly as early as January, we will bring home a newborn baby, or maybe even twins. These children will be our own. God's purpose is clear and present. We are so lucky to be so in love with Him that He has the opportunity to shower us with this blessing.
Turn your eyes upon Jesus, look full in His wonderful face, and the things of earth will grow strangely the light of His glory and grace!

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Singing in the car

Do you sing in the car? I do. For most of my life, it's been the one place I truly practice. My co-worker told me this week that she passes me on the road going home almost every single day. When I told her I have never noticed her passing me, she just laughed. Apparently, every time she's gone around me...she's looked over only to see that I am obviously singing at the top of my lungs...and half of the time I have one or both of my hands in the air!
I guess I could be embarassed about that, but instead...I realized that I can praise the Lord in my car and not be concerned with the world around me. Now, I don't recommend this in heavy traffic, but it IS a cool thing to turn off the radio and just sing and pray. It's a special time I have with God. He lets me try out a new song for Him and doesn't care if the notes aren't all right or good.
I remember in middle school, I had a strict choir director who once asked me to leave rehearsal because I couldn't stand still and sing with my hands by my side. Not only was I embarassed by this, but it caused me to be greatly inhibited for many years beyond school. I didn't know you could sing AND move...and I definitely didn't know you could do it before the Lord!
Now, when I sing...I'm not singing for anybody BUT the Lord. He's the one who has freed me from my chains of insecurity and fear. He's given me true freedom to worship Him with everything I have!
The next time you are in your car...just sing with everything you've got! Wave at the cars that pass you by and if you get too carried away....pull to the right and put your flashers on!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

God's Calling

It's Sunday night around 8:30 and I'm just now sitting down to think about all that has happened in the last few months. Just last week, our Sunday school teacher was sharing a lesson out of 1st Samuel. Samuel was lying down in the temple and thought he heard Eli calling for him. Over and over again he ran to Eli to ask why he had called for him. Each time, Eli said, " I did not call; go back and lie down." Finally Eli realized that Samuel was hearing the Lord's voice. He said to him, "Go and lie down, and if he calls you, say, 'Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening.'" The Lord indeed was speaking to Samuel.
Our teacher talked about how the next time we thought someone was calling for us only to find out they hadn't said a word...we would think twice. Oddly enough, this very thing happened to me that same afternoon after church, and again 3 times that week. I laughed when it first happened and I thought Jeremy was calling for me...but then I realized...maybe God is trying to get my attention. I sat quietly...and I am still soaking it in....
I am honored and humbled by the blessing of this website and the work that has gone on to get it up and running. I am in daily prayer about it, and I ask God to guide and direct my path.
I've been singing all of my life, but He's chosen NOW to give me an opportunity to do something I've never done before...and it's definitely a "calling."
What do I do with this responsibility? Nurture it, feed it, grow it, protect it, share it, and most of all... put it and leave it in God's hands...not my own!
If you think someone's calling your name...and they're not...THINK AGAIN...
God's got a lot to say!